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are good
but i'm still not doing anything with myself
i need motivation

the end
cigarettes
and the rest

well drank coffee
listening music
john's here

its been so long that ive been single
but now im in a relationship
weird
but awesome

went well
jus listened to music wit a friend
and drank

jus got home
drinkin coffee

is dying
i don't kno how to save him
:(

deja vu
weird when it happens

was fun
dats bout it

watching sky captain and the world of tomorrow
eating my 4th humongous bowl of pasta
going to florida tomorrow
:)

sucks

went to newark yesterday.
got home noon.
woke up jus now. i slept like an hour.
tired.
i woke up very dazed.
i wonder if i cried a lil while i was dreaming.

went to ny today.
times square
lunch at carmine's
then had a late late dinner at a malaysian restaurant in morristown
really goood food
it was rated at zagat's
so no surprise

i feel so sedated right now

Perpetual punishment is not for me
But in the stars of skies and trees
Whispers abundant lies of fears
The sun does shine
Brite like fier
Fiery dies in tries of near
Lies the truth in streams of clear

When it faces
Graces the wind
Breezes of fury
Wrath and dewey
Noises of quiet
Lites it be known
Under it stood
Understood

and damn
eva mendes is hot

forrest gump
drinking coffee

kinda confused

i want one

i want one right now
so bad

my cousin went to edison
my sister is in queens
and im alone right now

and i want a cigarette
would be nice

Oh yeah
Alright

Somebody's Heine'
Is crowdin' my icebox
Somebody's cold one
Is givin' me chills
Guess I'll just close my eyes

Oh yeah
Alright
Feels good
Inside

Flip on the tele
Wrestle with Jimmy
Something is bubbling
Behind my back
The bottle is ready to blow

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

I can't confront you
I never could do
That which might hurt you
So try and be cool
When I say
This way is a waterslide away from me
That takes you further every day
So be cool

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

Dear Daddy
I write you in spite of years of silence
You've cleaned up, found Jesus, things are good or so I hear
This bottle of Steven's awakens ancient feelings
Like father, stepfather, the son is drowning in the flood
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

is so good :)

i'm moving back to reading
im gonna give myself couple months
save up money

well get a job first
then save money

but
my sister is moving to brooklyn
im definiteley not feeling
being in a big house wit jus me and my mom

reading
is crappy
but i miss it